an hour of exercise bike craziness last night. an hour this morning. planning on another hour at lunchtime, and even more (maybe 90minutes tonight). I'm tempted to lose all discipline and just go out and drink, eat bad food, and toss it all in. It's frustrating not being able to run when it's just one little flaw thats stopping me from running.
I am also even more aware now of the passing of time. If I could stop time and sleep for about 5 days and then train hard for another 10 days, and then restart time... that would ease my concerns. The shin is better than it was 24hours ago. But then again, it was fine when I started running on Monday night after 36 hours rest... and mondays run was bad within a mile and got considerably worse over the next 6 miles. But then when I've had this before I've run through it and then it's gone away after 2 or 4 runs. But I don't remember it ever being this bad. I'll try and stay disciplined enough to cross-train through until Sunday morning. I really want to turn up and race in the half marathon on saturday, but that would be stupid, and just isn't going to happen.
Everyday that passes feels like a day lost right now. Struggling not to panic mr mannering. (Who do you think you are kidding Mr Hitler?)
